Good news!!!

The skin they pulled off of my grandfather's neck was not cancerous. Just sun spots from being a hard working outside man! Thank you Jesus.

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I feel like crap.

My roommate slept with his fan on Thursday night, he does every night. I got sick at the beginning of last semester from it. Yes, I know you can't get sick from being cold, but it does lower your immune system. Thursday night he must have had it on a higher setting or something. It was blowing right at my head and I woke up Friday morning feeling like absolute crap. I went through my day and things weren't too bad. Then it came time to sleep Friday night. He wasn't here so the fan was off. I slept for maybe three hours. AH! I woke up Saturday morning at 8:00 and watched some Man VS. Wild and fell asleep on the floor. I ended up going back to bed and waking up at three to get food and prepare for spring fling. I was feeling alright until later that night. We went to steak and shake then I came back to my room to sleep. I slept pretty well but woke up feeling so much worse than before. I don't know what is going on! Just pray I feel better fast, Finals are next week!

Zach Kidder surprised us with a visit this weekend. Joanna said a friend from Washington was coming down to visit and she was taking him to Spring Fling. I woke up to Jeremy knocking on my door Saturday morning. He asked if I wanted to go meet Joanna's friend. I told him I was sick and didn't think that was a good idea as I crawled back into bed. Then he said "okay, well I want to show you something first." Then the most amazing thing happened, Zach walked into my room and sat on my bed with me. Being sick, tired, and surprised I said something along the lines of "You got to be mess me." It was for real, Joanna Van Ronk somehow kept her little Zach Kidder Spring Fling date a secret! I wish I could have spent more time with him. He came in late Friday night and Left at 9:00 this morning. I have been sleeping most the weekend away thanks to this head cold or whatever it is.

AHHH!!! I just want to feel better!

Pray...

Pray for my grandfather; he is the only one I have ever known. The doctor's found that he had prostate cancer and it appears it may have spread. If what I am being told is true, they removed a tumor from his neck recently. I have never lost someone close to me. So, this could hit me pretty big, I think it already is.

Please pray for God's will in our family.

R.I.P. Chris Amore - Forever Missed

A guy I knew back home was stabbed to death. He lived in Detroit and, as judgmental as this might seem, was probably up t no good. I mean, if you are from Detroit you know where not to be at certain times. This was not Chris' first encounter with fights.

Not too long ago another kid I knew died. He was in a motorcycle accident and busted his skull open. He was from a well-to-do family that owned a popular steakhouse in Dearborn. He was one of the cool kids who made sure everyone knew it.

I guess all this is to say, why do people forget all the negatives about people when they die? Don't get me wrong I feel terrible that these people are no longer on this earth. I just don't get it. People who were terribly hurt suddenly have R.I.P. _____ _____ on their myspaces and messenger profiles.

Writing that I realized how insensitive I seem. I guess what I should be focusing on is, did I do what God wanted me to do in these people's lives. I certainly hope so. Chris was going to join Master's Commission at my old church; I don't thin he ever did. I know he loved his family very much, he lived at home with his father and two younger sisters and wasn't in the right crowd. He came over a few times to use my turn tables and bass guitar.

Shawn and I made a video in 8th grade on the giver. We acted the story out and made sure our "outtakes" topped Tony's group. We skated a little together but he always acted tough and like he was better than me. It just seemed like a defense mechanism.

All this to say I was able to interact in these peoples lives before my own pride and selfishness kicked in. I just hope that I was able to be who God wanted me to be and I didn't get in the way.

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Hands up, praise the Lord.

So, Jeremiah called me to go work the pedicab on Friday. I did not know the number so I didn't answer. When I got his message I thought about calling him back; I decided not to. Not that I don't need the money, God knows I do. I just know I'm going to miss everyone over the summer so I thought it would be more beneficial to hang out before I leave. Adam called today, I should probably call him back too.

Is it not crazy how God is there even when we aren't specifically looking for him. I'm thinking back on my year here at Evangel and looking at the person I am becoming. I have never once considered not going to church or thought maybe I should stop praying or I don't know some other crazy thing. It probably seems weird that I am pondering these things, but it seems like a lot of people just give up on God when they get even a taste of freedom. I have a friend who moved out when he was, I don't know, 19 or 20. He stopped going to church completely and gave up on a lot of the morals he was raised with. I have another friend whose parents weren't around so much in his mid-teen years and he is struggling with that relationship with Him as well.

I guess all this is to say I am glad God is always with us. Even when we turn our backs or get so selfish that we try things our own sinful way He loves us and has mercy on us and is more than happy to take us back as long as we tell him. As a Christian I make mistakes, heck, we all do. The only difference is as Christians we are called to acknowledge our mistakes and recognize through Christ's saving grace we are free. I do a lot of wacky stuff, but I can tell you one thing, I try my darnedest not to make that mistake again, and if I do, it's not in the same way it was before.

I think towards the last half of my life I can have this Christ-like life relatively down pack. Of course I will never be perfect, but I trust in God that with Him I'll be exactly who He needs me to be; in the end, is that not what we want too?


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Wowsas!

Why do good ideas take so much time and effort. I haven't even really started and I've spent all afternoon on this!

Looking back...

It's about a month to the end of the semester...
Wow! I'm looking back at all the things I could have done differently, and there were a lot of things I could have improved, and just as many I wouldn't think of changing. I did not do as well in my classes this semester, that is one thing I wish I would have put more effort to.

I know it probably should not be the highest priority but the relationships I have been a part of this semester and last are outstanding. I am so happy to have met the people I have. This semester even more than last, I feel like my friendships with people here are so strong.

I can't wait for a break from classes, but four months is a long time to be away from everyone. I will be working back at ABN. They just moved to their new location and I can see the headache that will be.

When ever I hear Anberlin's latest album Cities, I think of working there (probably because it was my album of choice when driving to and from there.) I do not get the greatest feelings from the thought of going back there, not for any drastic or extremely important reason, but I know it is a job in a state that is doing very poorly.
God will continue to be my strength I am certain.



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