My sight is through your eyes

I'm always running away from you
when I should be by your
side is where I should reside
but I'm always coming un-
glued to what I think is truth
instead of seeking your
face is red from disbelief
when shown your grace

Why is it I prefer to be blind
instead of seeking your sight
I know your love is more than enough
to carry me through this life
you are my king, my foundation, my God
I will make you my sight
to see through this world and all its lies
and all the ones inside

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There's a reason for this season.
He came to give us peace.
There's a smile on my face.
My parents always saved my place.
Underneath this sweater
My heart beats slower in my chest.
There's ice hanging from the trees
My blood just dropped a few degrees.

Complacent and dissatisfied.
Too lazy to get things right.
Unknowing to the reason
why I don't care in slight.

My God you sent your only son
to a man who hates within.
Too arrogant to accept your grace.
Too weak to run His race.
Deep in my heart of hearts
I know you're offering the best.
Your hand outstretched towards me:
Sinner - forgot how to breath.

Complacent and dissatisfied.
Too lazy to get things right.
Unknowing to the reason
why I don't care in slight.

Lights on the Christmas tree
Fire burning bright
You are the reason...
the hope that makes hearts ignite.
A baby born so long a go
changed the world... forever known.

Complacent and dissatisfied.
Too lazy to get things right.
Unknowing to the reason
why I don't care in slight.
I'll give up my burdens
and throw them out of sight.
I'll seek the king
the One who makes things right.

Complacent and dissatisfied.
Too lazy to get things right.
Unknowing to the reason
why I don't care in slight.
I'll give up my burdens
and throw them out of sight.
I'll seek the king
the One who makes things right.

Dear... whatever your name is,

You drive me insane! I look for you in the faces of everyone I meet. And somehow I still don't know who I'm looking for... yet I try to find you. Yeah, I've met others... but somehow none of them are you. How do I know? Well, it's gonna sound selfish, shallow and like every other thing that is attributed to the bridge breaker, but they are all disposable relationships. I know, I'm a jerk, right? Well, I hope you see through that. 'Cause the truth is, I already have a deep love that can't be broken for you.

Love,
whatever my name is.

The Heart (A string of random thought)

Content of heart.
Is it not just tissues and blood?
The heart is the basis of our living.
Why do we live?
This is why we attribute our hearts to desires.
It's the desires that give us something to live for/towards.
If Christ is "in your heart" that is your purpose of life.

Servanthood

Lately I have been struggling with some bad habits. I find myself doing the very things I hate. Today I realized how to change that. I need to serve. I need to serve others and hold on only to the things that are necessary for my survival in life and The Lord. We had a Bible study in Swift Suites the other night and someone said that the reason we commit most of the sins we commit is out of selfishness. When we give of ourselves we are filled with a feeling that surpasses any selfish desire.

Overwhelmed and confident.

So, these music classes are tough. They are killing me. I have to study so hard and I am still not at a satisfactory level. Most times when I would come to a tough thing like this I would just give up. Think about another major and go get the required amount of drop add slips. But I can't. Something inside me keeps telling me to try and study and that even if I don't fully understand this it'll be okay and the rest of the major will be all me.

I can tell it will too. Talking about the new studio and starting to mess with audio clips is beginning to be very fun. It's the technical side that I am realizing I am good at. Making music sound good. Using my creativity to give a song a whole new level. I am so excited for these next few semesters.

I just have to get through Music Theory... all three semesters of it.

Expectations

Cancel your expectations and take life as it comes.