Servanthood

Lately I have been struggling with some bad habits. I find myself doing the very things I hate. Today I realized how to change that. I need to serve. I need to serve others and hold on only to the things that are necessary for my survival in life and The Lord. We had a Bible study in Swift Suites the other night and someone said that the reason we commit most of the sins we commit is out of selfishness. When we give of ourselves we are filled with a feeling that surpasses any selfish desire.

I'm a boy with no kite on a windy day

I'm a thousand miles away, my dear.
I'm a thousand miles away from you.
I'm a thousand miles away, my dear,
playing a song you'll never here.

I'm a fish out of water.
And astronaut with no air.
I'm a boy with no kite on a windy day.
I'm wearing my Sunday best, walking by a mud puddle.
I'm walking towards the swings with no one to push.

I'm a thousand miles away, my dear.
And you have a broken leg and a cracked skull
I'm a thousand miles away, my dear,
32 staples to in your head
I'm a thousand miles away, my dear,
When I know I should be there.

But I'll fall for you, even though you are so far away.

Drop me to my knees!

You need to seek The Lord she said.
Seek The Lord and all else will fall into place.
Cry out to The Lord, I should.
Oh God hear me now!

I'm gonna seek you!
I'm going to hear your voice.
I'm gonna see you!
I'm going to lift my voice.
I'm gonna cry out!
I'm going to raise my voice.
I'm gonna call out
to hear your voice.

And how did I get here, so far from You?
I'm only a quarter way up my mountain.
Your voice hasn't made it's way through.
I was side tracked so long ago
and so I never did follow through.

I'm gonna seek you!
I'm going to hear your voice.
I'm gonna see you!
I'm going to lift my voice.
I'm gonna cry out!
I'm going to raise my voice.
I'm gonna call out
to hear your voice.

Drop me to my knees!
I need to be taken down.
Drop me to my knees!
I need to lose.
In my loss is Your gain
and in Your gain is my gain
Drop me to my knees!

I'm gonna seek you!
I'm going to hear your voice.
I'm gonna see you!
I'm going to lift my voice.
I'm gonna cry out!
I'm going to raise my voice.
I'm gonna call out
to hear your voice.
I'm gonna seek you!
I'm going to hear your voice.
I'm gonna see you!
I'm going to lift my voice.
I'm gonna cry out!
I'm going to raise my voice.
I'm gonna call out
to hear your voice.

Overwhelmed and confident.

So, these music classes are tough. They are killing me. I have to study so hard and I am still not at a satisfactory level. Most times when I would come to a tough thing like this I would just give up. Think about another major and go get the required amount of drop add slips. But I can't. Something inside me keeps telling me to try and study and that even if I don't fully understand this it'll be okay and the rest of the major will be all me.

I can tell it will too. Talking about the new studio and starting to mess with audio clips is beginning to be very fun. It's the technical side that I am realizing I am good at. Making music sound good. Using my creativity to give a song a whole new level. I am so excited for these next few semesters.

I just have to get through Music Theory... all three semesters of it.